I wake up each day wondering what I am doing and why I am still awake.
I had aspirations and hopes that lifted me up really high only to drop me in abyss of nothingness. Live to the fullest? What is the point? For what? For myself? I hate to break the news. There is no more me left as I no longer can feel anything except my weakening willpower and body as the days go by.
What is life for really? What is this pursuit for life actually? For happiness which will slowly fade away to nothingness? For challenging your brain which will slowly fade away as you turn to dust.
I had tried fulfilling my hopes and dreams. I had reached breaking point as in I stopped believing in myself. Success eludes me so much to the point that I do not know what it is. Let alone how it feels like. Being positive is good. What is positive where there is so much bad in you as well as the people in this world?
I want to die. I don’t have the guts to the necessary to end my pathetic existence. I am not complaining about life . I am just questioning what is the point?
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I can understand where you are coming from. A umber of things thatI wanted from live did not comet to me and I havent reached level of sucess that I would like. ButI still try. I still try to do the best with my life and connect with people and try to be a positive person. I also seek out adventure in my life too and that brings me some joy. I travel when I am able to. I read a lot of books and I exercise a lot to stay healthy. I feel that every dog has their day so to speak > so I believe a time in my life will come when things are going to go really really good. The Key is you have to keep your head up and your life going in a positive direction in order to catch it when it comes. I believe this is true for you too. If there were certain things you wanted to do with your life but they didnt work out so well. then formulte new aspirations and new dreams.
There is a lot you can do with your life. You can even learn to enjoy just being alive and having a simple job a few friends and maybe somebody specil in life.
I always try to live my life like the best is yet to come. I have done a lot of really cool things with my life but I believe there is more for me to accomplish in life and positive ccomplishments in life in my opinion is the meaning of life. Life is what you make of it.
nobody achieved a great life by sitting on the couch and sying life sucks over and over.
Nope they choose something they wanted to accomplish and they set out to do it and paid the price for it. There is a price you need to pay for everything. Its not always in money form its sometimes in your efforts and in your education and your dedication to what you are doing.
Its better off to try and to fail then it is to have never tried. In fact with ech failure in life there are lessons you can learn that can help you go further the next time around
keep plugging away. Find something you want to do then go do it.