So I’m new on here, but Weirdly enough I find it easier to vent to people I dont know rather than people I do know. I guess cause usually the people I do know end up judging me and leaving. Surprise, surprise.
So my family is really messed up, and I’ve been self harming for almost 2 years now. I’ve attempted suicide 9 times and, well, obviously, got nowhere with that. I’m also anorexic.
I just feel like I’m in a fish tank. I can’t move, can’t breathe, and no one can hear or understand me. I’m trapped in my own emotions and hurt. And day by day, hour by hour, I’m slowly drowning.
I’ve recently lost my best friend, which really sucks. We did everything together and she knew me inside and out. She probably knew me better than I knew myself. But then she left. Just like the others. When she promised she wouldn’t. So now I have trust issues and won’t tell anyone anything. I told myself I would never trust someone the same way I trusted her ever again. Because I never want to have my entire being crushed in such a way again.
I probably sound like I’m just complaining. So I’ll stop now. I just needed to get some stuff off of my chest. Cause sometimes, no, all the time, life sucks, and I just can’t handle it much longer.
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Anorexia is a bugger of a disease I suffered with it for years. No shit I didn’t even admit I was sick until I was better. But it effected so many other areas of my life. Hopefully if you can get a hold on yr anorexia the rest will be easier to cope with. PS. After 9 yrs of struggling I read the bible and yay! I beat it, and I wasn’t a religious person at the time. Good luck