as many of you probably know, there’s a breaking point.
there’s a point in your life where you’re just done.
done with school.
done with your friends.
done with your family.
done with life.
just done.
and you don’t know how these feelings just suddenly exploded inside of you.
but you’ve reached your breaking point.
you’ve reached that point where you feel as if you can’t handle your shit or anyone else’s shit anymore.
you break.
I mean that’s what a breaking point is anyway.
it’s that point where you break and you don’t feel as if anyone can save you from the pits of your depression.
and this point is where I am at now.
and I’m terrified.
I’m so scared.
because soon, I’ll act on my brokenness.
and I won’t be here to see the damage I caused.
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I’ve come very, very close to my breaking point. Now I know the signs that might warn me. If you know it’s coming, maybe you can seek help?
I know there is a point when you just throw your arms up and say you’re not taking any more but to reach a breaking point where suicide is the only option, that’s a tough position to be it. You are terrified, I know it’s scary to want to die, to be looking for the best option to leave the world but it’s not too late to talk more about why you have reached this decision. It’s sad you feel that you have no future in life and yet you use a name referring to how you have wanted to try, the people on SP are here to listen to you if you want to talk.
I have felt this, and it hurts. No one can tell you things will get better because you just can’t believe it. It has already been said… But talk to someone. It may not fix anything, but allow you to share your pain. Carrying the burden alone is so heavy.
beautiful worded ~ thank you..
i will leave a wake of damage in my last days if i can muster courage… i have so selflessly for so long , now the last hurts are the worst… the betrayal and the humiliation too much to bare.
the humiliation i endure to just awake up to endure more humiliation. not only work now but.. the one relationship and unfortunately my added funds to survive..
i am stuck cannot move to a cheaper place to live no funds.. an older a still attractive female.. once bright successful, a great painter still and yet .. i am in tragic fear and all alone every day. a married man. promising things not even . and i am stuck. i rather dies than continue to live this humilation and i wll break others as i leave this place broken
gave not have *
Its also scarier when your getting close to that point . I have been there numerous times. Just try to keep ur head up and pick up the pieces.