I hate myself i’m so goddamn selfish why cant I be fucking normal and be able to socialize with ease like I used to? What the fuck is wrong with me? Why the fuck am I so goddamn lonely? Why the bloody hell do I isolate myself? I try so damn hard to radiate fucking positivity but I end up sadder than ever. I was so happy just a week ago. Now I’m sad. Again. I cant seem to get out of it this time. Again. I have no one. I am no one. I want to die. Why cant I just die? I wake up most days hoping a freak accident will happen and i’ll die. Hopefully. One day. Maybe tomorrow. Hopefully. If there is a damn God please please just let me die please
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I feel the same. So many random accidents happen every day, why can’t they happen to people who are wishing for them to? Hope you feel better soon, all of us here know how miserable it is to feel like you do 🙁
funny you say that, ive known 4 friends to die by accident.. all of them happy and enjoying their life! I get so mad sometimes and say wtf, i would of died instead of any of them.. they werent wasting their life like me.. such bullshit
ella, the best thing we can do when we feel like this is find what the true root of what has caused you to feel this way… and then maybe try to fill that void with something that makes you happy again. I know its hard.. shit i messed up my life in absolutely every aspect.. so i know im just fucked.. but.. i might go travelling for year this summer… maybe that will help me
Glad im not alone with the accident stuff. Thanks for the input guys.
Sounds like a lot of black and white all or nothing thinking. There is no such thing as normal and it’s highly overrated anyway. Give yourself a break and you are doing the best that you can in this moment, because that’s all we have is this moment. We can’t go back and fix the past and we can’t see into the future.
But I don’t know how to give myself a break because I think I can do better. Did that make sense? Probably not hell I don’t know what im trying to say but thanks Mitchell
shoot me an email if ur alone. or if u got kik just kik me. kik me hard enough to kill me. addy: monkeefun
Whats a kik? I think email would work. It would be nice to talk to someone