Damn man, this seems like routine. I remember when I said “things get better”… Well, sweet sweet irony. I guess I ate my words huh?
I feel horrible again, and I don’t know anymore if it’s my fault or if it’s someone else’s. I feel alone, waaay worse than before. I can’t go back to cutting, and I can’t say a god fucking word to anyone. I’m lost…
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I am sorry you are going through this again. It is hard and surviving is a struggle. I hear you. I feel the same.
Try to be less hard on yourself. It isn’t easy and beating yourself up for feeling bad just makes it worse.
As you say the hard things that depression brings (and you do feel!), tell yourself: I am a good person, I deserve to be happy, I will get through this. Because you will.
Be kind to you.
Because you do.
P.S… I meant to delete that last line as I edited my post. It is valid though. It was meant to follow up the line… you deserve to be happy. Because you DO. (Sometimes hard, I admit!)
good luck. i just cut again, after having quit for an incredibly long time. it sucks, real hard. don’t be me.