Okay so I’ve been asked to share my story and here it is.
I am a 17 year old female and I have cancer.
I was diagnosed about this time last year and I was told that I have a 75% chance of surviving. In November I had my right leg amputated, just above the knee. I am still on chemo.
When I was about 13-years old, my best friend died. This had a major impact on my life. I couldn’t eat, sleep or even talk to anyone. My parents started taking me to a psychologist but it didn’t help. I was taken to a specialist and i was clinically diagnosed with severe depression. This went on for a couple of years.
i was about 14-years old when I started self harming. As soon as my parents found out they removed all sharp objects from my reach and they monitored me 24/7 for about 4 weeks. As soon as they stopped, the self harming started again.
At the age of 15 I lost my little cousin to stage three brain cancer. Again, I fell into a deep depression and the cuts got deeper. I went through high school without making any friends and only speaking when spoken to.
When I was diagnosed with cancer it hit me hard. It felt as if my life were over.
Now that I’ve lost my leg, nothing else matters anymore. I have a 85% chance of getting cancer yet again and when that happens, I won’t fight it. I’ll let it take over.
Life isn’t worth living anymore. So if it’s my time I won’t do anything about it.
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You are so strong! You may not notice it, but you are. You can’t give up now. You may be sick again, right, but you can’t be sure about that. You have to fight. I can be with you.
I am so sorry to hear about your story , i wish there is anything i can do for you , when i read a story like yours i should count my blessings and feel satsfied , but in fact it makes me hate this world even more , life is soo unfair … People who were born beautiful and healthy what did they do to deserve it , and those who were born ugly or disabled or become sick through their life what did they do to deserve it….
You know what really sucks.
My little cousin was 6 when she died. SIX FREAKING YEARS OLD. and she died of stage three brain cancer. I’m the lucky one. She didn’t even get to make it to her thirteenth birthday.
Your story is so sad, i’m really sorry for you, but you have to find your will to fight! You’re so young, you can’t die.. Please, don’t give up, just keep fighting.. Do it for yourself. Do it for your family. You are not alone!
Alek.
Hi Scartopia, your post really gets me pissed at the universe… Me, I’ve made my mistakes and I deserve my pain… But what the hell did you do to deserve any of this at such a young age? Like you said about your cousin 6 YEARS OLD.
Well, like everyone else has said, you are really strong and it seems like you’ve weathered the worst. If the cancer comes back, you can deal with that problem later. But for now take a breather because you beat it.
And if you need a little inspiration, google Heather Mills ex-wife of Paul McCartney. She lost her left leg below the knee in a motorcycle accident. Since then she has done so much for the world, for animals, disabled people, and on. Maybe you could even write her a letter?