I can’t function in this life…I don’t belong here…too fucked up somehow…I want out, I want out…wish I could remove myself from existence and memory…I hate this feeling of bringing grief to my family and others…I don’t see myself ever overcoming whatever my malfunction is…it has been two decades now…why did I ever end up here in this life…I want out, I want out…
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Amen to this. Struggling with these feelings myself this morning. Trying to hold back from crying and lashing out. Flipping out. Hope we find a way to recenter.
It really does suck being this way…being someone who keeps finding himself again in this pain…even unto twenty years…I want it to stop…
Thank you for being a nameless buddy in this…