I think people are getting tired of me being that fucking sad all the time.
Worst part is that I am too. I hate myself. I hate being sad. I hate feeling stupid. I hate feeling useless. I hate this fucking anxiety.
I don’t want the world having this picture of me anymore. I don’t want them to think that I’m just looking for attention, or that I’m a poor sad broken kid.
But I can’t stop crying. And it’s been almost two years of crying almost every day. I should be dry by now.
And I keep reading about depressed people being unable to cry. So maybe I’m not depressed, maybe it’s just that I really am an stupid, useless, anxious sad and broken kid.
Anyways, I won’t call anyone anymore. They don’t deserve being disturbed all the time just because I’m unable to face the world.
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A lot of what you say resonates with myself too. If you can take any comfort from it, you are definitely not alone in how you feel.
I feel the same way. My friends try to cheer me up but it’s getting harder and harder to smile. I guess a lot of us on here ARE sad broken kids. it sucks you’re going through this.
Hey, some people cry ,some don’t , it doesn’t take away from your pain. Nobody can tell you how you should feel. But it does suck big time to feel so desperate. Wishing you brighter times.