I’ve spent my entire life trying to figure out what I want to do for a living. I think I’ve got a lead on something that seems right. It would allow me to work from home, part time, and I could make three times what I make now. If I can actually do it.
I’ve been stuck in a fast food job for almost a decade.
I wanted to sing or write, and now I do nothing. I have this weird brain fog thing, so nothing even looks real. I have snow vision. I get angry at my child all the time.
Nothing at all makes me happy.
And I just realized….even if I do this job and I can quit fast food…nothing will change. I still won’t have any reason for living. I have absolutely ZERO reason to wake up in the morning other than “because I have to.”
I just don’t want to be around anymore.
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Yo,
You said you want to write, so do. Simple as that. Need inspiration? Write a fiction based on what your feeling. Dont know where to start? Look at books youve read and how they start. Dont know when to start? How about right now. Pick up a pen and paper and start writing and see where the story takes you.
Good luck 🙂
I don’t think I even want to write. I mean, yes, I’d like to be able to, but it’s just the fact that I do nothing creative..nothing that sets me apart as an intellectual..that’s where I find value in other people, so I can’t see any in myself.
I’ve got nothing to write. I quit writing maybe…six years ago and there’s nothing there anymore. I pick up a pen and get anxious and start thinking that maybe I should really just kill myself because nothing creative is coming out of this foggy fucking brain.
Write about someone who wants to kill themselves. Write about depression. Write your worst thoughts down on that page and form them into a story. Anyone can write, you just gotta enjoy what your doing 🙂
And therein lies the problem. Enjoying ANYTHING is pretty unattainable goal.
Dude (dunno why I said that, Im not american),
Your bored with life, You probably spend hours everyday lying on your bed/sofa on your phone, or doing boring jobs. Right now, go and do it. Pick up a pen. Put down your phone, and for half an hour, sit and stare at a page and write down the feelings and dreams that come into your head. Everything youve ever wanted to be or to have. The life you wanted to live can live on paper and you can gain enjoyment from creating it 🙂 Try it. Trust me 🙂
Haha, I wish. I think I was happier taking percosets and sleeping all day than I am now. I have a job, a house to clean, a kid to deal with, two rescue dogs to care for, a cat, and a fiance. I don’t have time to lie around.
That being said, I’ve tried about a thousand times in the last few years to just write. Nothing comes out of it.