I don’t want to write a long text.
I don’t want to go to school, I am afraid of failing in School in Life ,being homeless..
I got the choice suicide or not?
I am 14 retoke 7th Grade I am now getting in 8th.
Why am I still alive? What is keeping me from suicide?
For a fact from my life now it’s great, but school is startin and I am so scared, afraid of failing.
I am broken down I am forteen and I still wet the bed.\
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Hey, things will get better, I ran away from home when I was in 8th grade and I had a step father who molested me. But you are so young and have so much life to live. I failed through school until my senior year. Thanks will get better I promise. Just give it time. Try going to an alternative school for high school. Just know that someone cares, I care.
You should tell your parents about wetting the bed. It’s not a shame. It happens to adults too. If the urinary system has infection, we can’t control that. Or the kidneys are weak, the muscles related with bladder and urinary ducts will not function well.
It’s never a shame to be sick. Also if the kidneys not good enough and weak, you’ll also forgetting things.
You are right about not being normal. Then fix it!
Also the outer genitals area, have to flip it or turn it over at the foreskin area during showering, have to thoroughly clean it. Otherwise the dirt will cause infection too. And this infection will start itchy and induce masturbation. Too much of masturbation will cause weakness of the kidneys. Soon after, tiredness all the time, long sleep, and back-soreness, forgetting things and black eyes, and dreams of erotic or not.
Dear Friend.
I know you’re hurting. I’ve been hurt too and I’ve been confused and lost. I’ve even thought about suicide myself. But I promise that it will get better. That may not mean much, but it will. You’re at a young a confusing age right now and so much is happening to you. Your thoughts exist in your mind because at this moment your mind is trying to discover itself. You do not need to be afraid. You can overcome all this with time and help. Even if you don’t think you can, believe me, it is possible. Tell someone how you feel, even if it’s just a friend or a family member. Or even ring a helpline, they’re out there too. You don’t have to tell them everthing, just that you’re unhappy. Start there.
Whatever you do adn whatever you think, you’re not alone in the world. Everyone has a reason for being here. You will find yours.
I promise.
Jack
I had the same thing happen to me for a long time :/ It made it very hard to keep relationships, atleast healthy ones. & Just a week ago, I was reminded of something in my past that bothered me terribly & out of nowhere, I did.
You’re sooo young, I mean, I know I’m 17, & not that much older, but I felt the same way when was your age. I felt like school was against me, & I couldn’t do it, & I was worthless. But, high school gets alot easier, since there are more people to relate to, & it won’t be the same people that went to your junior high, probably. But they tend to help you alot more in highschool as well. I’m not going to graduate this year, but I’m going to go to highschool until I do graduate…
Just a little advice >.<
Haha my parents know about wedding the bed..I am just so sick of failing feelings…ahh a lot of people care about me thanks for the help but I am myself the world not worth, I hurt people to much and they still keep on helping me, I am not good enough for this world.
hey,
you know, i used to think that exact same thing too…until i realized that i must be worth something if all these people i hurt are still willing to help me, because to them, i’m obviously worth something.
i know life’s not easy sometimes, especially when you’re afraid, but you can’t be afraid to fail in life.
I know that’s a lot easier said than done, but trust me, you have to be confident. don’t worry too much about school – you don’t have to get amazing grades (like straight A’s or whatever) to be an amazing student. what makes you an amazing student is that you always try your best and give it everything you have. when you do that, then you can NEVER say you failed.
give everything some time, trust me.
i’ve been through what you’re talking about, and i’m past it now.
you just gotta be strong, i believe in you.
:)hey,
you know, i used to think that exact same thing too…until i realized that i must be worth something if all these people i hurt are still willing to help me, because to them, i’m obviously worth something.
i know life’s not easy sometimes, especially when you’re afraid, but you can’t be afraid to fail in life.
I know that’s a lot easier said than done, but trust me, you have to be confident. don’t worry too much about school – you don’t have to get amazing grades (like straight A’s or whatever) to be an amazing student. what makes you an amazing student is that you always try your best and give it everything you have. when you do that, then you can NEVER say you failed.
give everything some time, trust me.
i’ve been through what you’re talking about, and i’m past it now.
you just gotta be strong, i believe in you.
🙂
you said you are in 7th grade right? what could you have possibly done to believe you dont deserve to be in this world. My dad committed suicide when I was in 7th grade and it was devastating…maybe you just need to try to get involved. Maybe try something new? You are so young and YOU DESERVE to love life while you still dont have to worry about bills and being an adult. As for the wetting the bed problem…my brother did that until he was in high school…sometimes people just grow out of it too 🙂 seriously! do you play sports, like to do pottery, paint, draw, hike? just a few suggestions 🙂
Yes we do care. And yes you are good enough. You don’t think anyone is on this site because they’re happy? But at least we can try to help someone else. You are good enough for this world. x
The reason they keep helping you is because you ARE worth it. Please ask if you can see a Dr. about the bed wetting. There are physical reasons that can happen. You are not the only person who experiences that. It is quite common and it can be helped. Perhaps that is making you feel very badly about yourself.
Your fear of failure is so sad. You condemn yourself even before you have the chance to try. Again, please ask to talk to a Dr. or a counsellor who can help you look at your thoughts. Negative thought patterns can become a habit which can destroy us. If we want to though we can slowly begin to create positive thought patterns – and our lives can change incredibly. You could have a wonderful life ahead of you if you would take a chance and ask for help from professional Dr.s or counsellors. I believe in you.
Sorry, I can’t relate to the feelings of failing. But I did use to wet the bed and I’m not a guy. It stopped when I was in around 7th grade. I used to wear diapers every night so that I won’t wet the bed, and the bed will be covered with plastic just in case the diaper leaked. I know for a fact that I wouldn’t want any of my friends to know about it and I’m not really sure how I’ll react if they find out now, even though I don’t do that anymore. Hmmm.. can’t relate with your other feelings though.