Lost

Angry all the time. Lost. Frustrated. Tired. Angry at the world and at myself. Still blood dripping down my face from getting in a fight with my brother and getting angry about being weak and cutting my temple just to let go of some of the anger. Girlfriend of 4 yrs got angry and walked out, and rightly so. It’s hard to fight the enemy when the enemy is yourself. I……just don’t know what to do anymore, and maybe I never did. I can’t do this anymore. But I don’t know how to change. Been on meds, counseling, you name it…..I just…..still trying to figure out where to go from here. Take off and not come back? Take a drive and stop where I run out of gas and money? I don’t know anymore. I can’t even think of what I’m doing wrong. Just so god-aweful tired of the world seeming like a dark hellish hole.