regret

I understand. Self-harming is an addiction, and even though you feel you need it, you don’t. I’ve self harmed in the past and whenever the mental pain came back all I craved was the physical pain. Now that you’ve told your mother, I think it’s best to keep going back to her for support whenever you feel the urge to self-harm. Keeping it inside will only cause you to develop dangerous new ways to cope. Just stay strong and keep fighting it.