So, hi all, I’m new here. That sentence in itself sounds whack enough to qualify me to be here, eh? I was reading the Read This First – Actively Suicidal subsection & noted how well it applied to me. I feel that my coping resources are next to nil. Never had good ones, but with so many stresses going on I can’t even seem to get the ones I have to work. I feel like I’m drowning in stress…ready to snap.
Fibromyalgia, OCD, Binge Eating Disorder, chronic depression, plus all the regular stressors of life…just can’t seem to cope. Trying…struggling to keep lips above the water line, but damn muscles are cramping up and doggie paddle isn’t working like it used to.
Got good ideas for ways to end it…shotgun handy, buildings available, etc…got no guts. So tired.
I get that this isn’t a poetic or meaningful like a lot of the posts are on here, but it’s all I got right now.
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I’m sorry to hear you’re at the end of your tether. Maybe just venting through a few posts will help (a little bit) to begin with? It sounds like you have a lot of stress triggers going along with the stress (a vicious circle and all that), is there any way you can work on reducing paerhaps just one aspect, even a little, it may knock on to others? I know its probably not what you want to hear or that helpful but a problem shared is a problem halved, right
Hello, you’re not alone. I know what it’s like to have both physical problems and mental issues such as depression, anxiety, social interaction impairment, and PTSD. I, too, have a chronic painful condition that’s just worsening with pain and debilitation. I’m looking for ways out but I’m too chicken. Of course, my dream would be some ******** but unfortunately we can’t have access to peace here and have to suffer. I’m so sorry you’re hurting, I can’t say it’s going to get better because it hasnt for me as hard as I have tried. So many people just don’t understand, but this group of people do. It’s comforting knowing we are not alone in our endeavors. Whatever you decide is your fate, you have my total support and understanding. Wishing you peace, in all ways possible.
Hey I’m sorry your going though such a hard time. I have want you mentioned above including food addiction. I curved that for other addictions like alcohol because my brain cannot produce enough endorphins to sustaine me. I never had coping skills ethier my friend. I tried to obtain them and know what to do BUT my brain has a mind of its own. Not making this about me, just wanna tell you that your not alone. I am so sorry you have fibromyalgia. I had a good friend with that and ended up committing suicide in part because of it back in 2009. If you need an ear, I’m here to listen