I have recently been having some pretty intense nightmares, including waking dreams, which are the most horrific series of events, emotions, and imagery that persist after you wake up. The thing that makes these dreams so incredibly petrifying is the relief you would normally feel upon waking up is shattered by the persistence of the thing you fear the most appearing in reality. Sometimes they fizzle out quickly, alternatively there are times I lay in bed for over an hour trying to figure out my reality, it’s as if I completely dissociate from reality, and I am unable to distinguish things that clearly aren’t real from true logical rational reality. The dreams I have been having lately are very episodic, and drawn out. I have no lucidity during them, and I have no control over their outcome, instead I am almost paralyzed in a dream, and I have to watch to it’s entirety.
Dream 1:
I was in an apartment that was my own, but very unlike my own apartment. In the dream, there is a prisoner locked in the middle of my room, and he would periodically tell me of the impending doom to come. He systematically told me, “I am going to escape, there’s nothing you can do about it.” The man in the cage had a menacing face somewhat shrouded in darkness. The whites of his eyes were highlighted, along with his teeth, which were average sized with somewhat large gaps between each tooth, but as light came in from the outside you could see portions of his face, each angle was frightening in some way.
I only remember small portions of the dream, but the order I remember framed the dream so that, I would be in the room trying to sleep, and periodically I would get a reminder from the prisoner about escaping, and then I would hear something in my house. After I heard something, I would wake up, and run to see what caused the noise. I would see random friends and show them out the front door, which had a massive threshold, and just outside had a grandiose wide staircase leading to the proportionally large entrance. I would lock the door, and the series of these events would repeat itself again, each with a person I know or knew from my life.
After being made aware of how terribly insecure my apartment is, I laid back down in my bed, and was once again reminded, “I’m getting out tonight, David.” At this point, the prisoner in my room has become increasingly irritated with me, and was sounding more maniacal and passively angry. I shrugged it off because I wasn’t taking him seriously at this point. Just after I roll over to sleep, a broad shouldered bald inmate sneaks in my room wearing a dark blue jumpsuit with a prisoner number on his back. I think to myself, “Oh shit, it’s happening. If I roll over and sleep, maybe they will just sneak out.” I rolled over in my bed, and pulled the covers over my body laying on my side. I laid there for maybe 30 seconds, but when I looked back to see if they had gone from my room, they were both standing over me. I was immediately able to wake up at this point, but as I looked up they were both still standing in my room, smiling in an aggressive sadistic way. I started screaming so loud, and in just a few moments they dissolved, and left from my field of vision.
That was truly the most terrifying dream I have ever had. I felt a real and total fear for my life, and I thought two very large men were going to either beat me to death, or close to death, and who knows what else.
Dream 2:
This was not a waking dream, but equally obscure.
A huge group of people in silhouettes of yellow of gold, orange, yellows, and deep reds, with a black background, were pulling what appeared to be long stringy pieces of cheese, but less flexible than cheese as if it froze just after stretching, in huge formations of solid lines like a futuristic skyscraper with lots of in-congruent lines, from each others mouths. Once the person had the massive rod pulled from the others face, and it released from the body, they would maniacally laugh as a group in hysterics as if it gave them some weird pleasure, felt by the whole group, it was almost sexual. After the rod had released, they would then shove it into another person in the group’s mouth, cramming it down their throat. Once the rod was forced down the throat of another participant they would once again laugh as a group in a disgusting overreaction. This repeated itself for I am not sure how many times. Periodically, while taking a rod out or putting one into another face they would scream “Fuck! No, no STOP!! WAIT.” giving you the idea that something terribly wrong would happen if even one of them even moved. It was always too late, the person receiving or having the rod extracted from them would shriek in an agonizing rage, and simultaneously blood would spray in ribbons in every direction with an anime bloodshed quality, or a scene from Kill Bill. Almost immediately after the bloodshed you could hear the limbs and other body fragments hit the floor in subsequent order, “Thud thud thud.. thud” It continued like this over and over. It took me a really long time to snap out of this dream, there was a point when I was watching this disturbing display where I was just trying to work out what was happening, and I woke up.
I have had one other waking dream, but I am not going to go into it. It was honestly too strange to explain.