So I found a place to live, in an LGBT household and I know I’ll have support here but I feel so empty and painfully alone because I lost my best and closest friend in the sense that he truly doesn’t give a fuck how I feel, refuses to listen to how I feel and will cut me out of his life if I say how I feel, shits all over my feelings and acts like I don’t exist and we were never as close as we were and constantly pushes me away and trivialize my feelings and barely says anything to me now. How can he do this to me, stomp on my feelings after all I’ve given him all I ask for is acceptance as a person and I don’t fucking get that from him anymore.
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I know the feeling. I had a longterm partner who worshipped my like a goddess, wanted to be with me all the time, we did everything together for the first 3 years then he just kind of flipped, it seemed like he just plain didn’t like me or anything I did or said. It was actually the most horrible feeling in the world, I would try to say the right thing or do the right thing and he would just be mean back to me, it really hurt because I still loved him. We stayed together for another 5 years (mostly because he wanted to live in my house and so he just tolerated me) and then he left me and took half my house. I wish I had broken up as soon as the relationship went sour. You need to try to find the strength to leave him. I am really sorry for you and wish I could help. My advice is try t find something to do outside of what you normally do like take art class, dance class and be around other people not him.
Unfortunately he’s never been mine. We were just super close now it’s gone and he doesnt’ care how I feel or what hell it puts me through.
Good for you about the LgBT household.
Then he isn’t a true friend. He is not someone you should want in your life. If it’s so easy for him to let go of you and treat you like this, you don’t need that in your life either. Not from someone you thought cared about you. Don’t put yourself through that with him. There are other, better people out there who would actually give a shit about you, don’t fight for the ones who don’t. Please.