I was sucidal, fast forward a few years, ive gotten over it
I thought id let you know a lil’ bit more about me so i told i once felt like killing myself
I was so shocked when you told said
“suicide is wrong, it’s selfish; why cant you be more thoughtful?”
You made me feel as though i chose to be suicidal
& i should be ashamed and punish myself for it
Why cant you understand
I thought you were trustable
I
Thought
You
Were.
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It used to make me feel terrible when people talked about suicide as selfish. Now I think how fortunate they are because they’ve always felt that they could make a choice in their life… they’ve never had to battle with their mind to quite the same extent. Although, even when I’d been suicidal in the past, I thought it was still something you could control if you really wanted to. As if it was that simple… I think it was because I’d fought so hard and nothing really came of it… I felt like some people took the easier path and then they were the ones to have the sympathy. It was just bitterness from struggling through it alone. There are all kinds of ignorance, and all you can really do is try to explain. It’s whether someone’s willing to listen that’s important.
It’s an interesting and perplexing conundrum. I’m not saying that they’re wrong in saying that “it” is selfish but they fail to see themselves as selfish as well.
I personally don’t see suicide as selfish at all. Persons who end up going the way of suicide oftentimes have struggled through what could be a multitude of things… oftentimes making the decision to carry forward for others. At what point does it make sense to continue to struggle simply for others? …Especially if you’re not living for yourself. People have mentioned to me about “something good could be around the corner”… I’m at the point of non-interest of what is around the corner. I personally just want peace and mental freedom.
it’s a perplexing question where there is no correct answer. No one is wrong and no one is right. One has to live for themselves as living merely for others grows very exhaustive over time. People who “aren’t there” in terms of being suicide ideation will never understand ones desire for exit, visa versa is true.
I agree with what mark_1981 said there. There’s no real answer to that. Suicide can be seen as both selfish and unselfish depending on the situation and how you approach it. In the end it’s your own life so you’re entitled to do whatever you like with it, but that doesn’t mean you won’t harm others with your decisions (either alive or dead), and that can be said about… well, i guess pretty much everything in life.
It’s hard for people that have never been suicidal to understand how it feels like to be willing to give up your life. Is not worthy to get mad or feel bad, it’s just matter of perspective.
Glad you don’t feel suicidal anymore, btw.