I’ve been so drained . And it seems like sleep isn’t helping at all. When I got out of class at 3:00 i came home and went to bed and just now woke up.. It’s 10:27 pm. I feel like shit still. I think I should just go back to sleep. I waste my life away … I never do anything else because I mentally and physically have no energy . I don’t eat anymore beside I’m not hungry. I am just exhausted. Thanksgiving is in a couple of days and I don’t even think I wanna be around for it. I don’t want to be with my family. I’m thinking about going off on a road trip by my self for a couple of days. I need to be alone and find some peace somewhere . It’s not here. My love really ended things with me . I want someone to love me so badly , and he does , but he doesn’t want to lead me on still because he’s trying to follow his dreams in music .. I understand though. I want him to excel. I don’t even think someone loving me makes me the least bit happy anymore .
It doesn’t seem like anything helps.
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Nicole, I know how it is. I don’t know what to tell you; it’s hard to let someone go. I’ve actually never been able to let anyone go, but I’ve heard that it’s a pretty rough thing. You should listen to Regain Control, by Shirobon. That’s some pretty crappy advice from my end, but it’s all I can think to tell you.
Love fades with time. You should talk to him about it though. All good relationships need a strong ending, imo. When love gradually fades, it’s the worst feeling.
As for life…I mean, I’m currently doing the same thing you’re doing, wasting my life away. I was pretty involved in life today, but only because of Sunflower’s encouragement, and the fact that it’s the last day before Thanksgiving Holidays. It took an immense amount of effort on my part. And I don’t feel better; I feel pissed off and more depressed then ever before. So…I don’t know what to tell you.
I think a road trip will be a good thing for you, although you should probably take some safety precautions before you start hitchhiking or doing other dangerous stuff. Get yourself back nicole. You can do it.
You are very beautiful nicole, I saw that picture with you. I may go but you have to go on .
Who says you can’t go on ? I don’t want to go on. Everyday I get closer and closer to wanting to kill myself . I always think about how I do it . I have a plan. But I’m scared ..
Same here.
my heart breaks knowing i can relate too much…fear…again-what a slap in the face…