After Thanksgiving and Black Friday, I could not have been more pissed off at all the wasted nuclear garbage I am seeing from my family, social media, ect. Before I go on, this is just me giving my honest thoughts on this whole thing I speak on no one else’s behalf. First I’ll talk about Thanksgiving and how we should all be thankful. I was with my family for Thanksgiving, quite a few people and we all talked about what we were thankful for. I could not give an appropriate response, I just said in a weary voice “I’m just thankful for the delicious food we’re about to eat.” But really I am not thankful at all, I can’t be thankful. What I have been given is 1st, being forced to be in a world that is filled with corruption and wasted nuclear garbage. 2nd, always being told to live life and I need to be in control to survive when most of the fucking time people telling me this junk are ignorant of how I really feel. 3rd, failing in all of my attempts, but I guess I have it better than some given how no one I know personally knows I’m suicidal and thus not on any suicide watch bullshit which really would make me want to kill myself even more. I mean I see nothing to be thankful for, I wish I was successful on Nov. 21st when I tried to hang myself. I really do.
Black Friday, just makes me hate humans, how greedy they are for useless fucking garbage which won’t matter when they’re all going to die someday….
This is why I have been drawing plans for a device that could travel many light years into space, and never return, hell if I was able, I would sign up for that Mars One project NASA is doing, though I hope humanity doesn’t plague Mars like on Earth, though I will probably kill myself long before 2027 anyways. Just need to rant, that is all. Have a good night SP members.
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We all go through this phase. I was ao busy I really didn’t think about it being Friday nor Black.
Now you have me worried. What am I going to buy for all my SP friends???
Night.
Well since I was still on a really bad trip from a failed attempt, I slept through thanksgiving and most of Black Friday. Best holiday ever. Now all my family and friends are crying about all the weight they gained and upset stomachs and I have lost 3lbs this week. Tomorrow they will be broke and I will still be broke, but my credit cards are still paid off :).
Best Thanksgiving post suicide story I have read all day. Abiss, I do like how you made this a win. It makes me happy. And truthfully, who the fuck wouldn’t want to sleep through dinner with the family some years? Still I’m glad you are still with us, and that your cards are paid off. Win and Win.