I dont even know if im publishing this, because im too emotional right now, but after a day that i was living ok, i went to do that thing that still makes me feel alive, or used to, not sure anymore, in my way to home i just cried, pain just got me.
Its just very hard to try to keep moving on without any happiness, full of guilty, full of dead love.
Well im just waiting a few days, after what happned to me last week , ill say goodbye to her, to all those things that i still have from her, only memories will remain to hunt me, it’s just i cannot do this anymore, ill never be the same happy person again, with plans for the future, i lost something that was only mine from the begining, i lost something unique.. can’t go back, can’t undo what i’ve done already, life sucks.
I hope i get lost in the process, anyways life is meaningless as far as anybody can proves.
Like it says in my country, “We only miss people who’s here” or something like that im not sure about the right translation.
If we gone, we gone, its over.. happiness is beauty, but when u get broken it hurts thousand times more than happiness make you happy.
Endless nightmare, It’s incredible stupid what people can do to ea other, but its amazing what we can do to ourselfs.
Gameover.
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Damn.. Allitends, I hope you hang in there. I look up to you and some others for your kind wisdom. I know my happiness and future plans are gone.. And i dont think i can ever get it back. I hurt often but hopefully you can stay and help others like me.
Thanks.
I hope not, i can say that i had great life, but it became nothing now 🙂