Just a dumb rant for the day.
So, at work this morning, I had to call a client to get some information from them. I do it all the time because they always forget to tell me shit I need to know; therefore, I’m pretty familiar with the client and talking with them on the phone. I share an office with Z, a manager here, and today when I called the client, I would ask them the question and Z would just frantically say “Give them the options! Give them the options!” Like really? There were only two choices they could pick from, and they knew that, so I didn’t think I had to specify. If I didn’t specify, though, I knew Z would yell at me afterwards. The client started talking already and I had to cut them off to say what Z asked me to. So I felt like a jerk, not to mention the fact I sounded like an idiot novice for fumbling for words. And I decided to ask them the same question, but to deal with next week, so I wouldn’t have to make another call then too. I figured since it’s going to be the same deal next week as this week I wouldn’t have to give them the options.. but who’s freaking out at the adjacent desk? Z, of course. Like god damn, it’s the same two options, I’m just wanting to confirm it with them. They don’t need the fucking options again. But, I interrupted the client once again..
I’m just so frustrated. Her freaking out over there isn’t helping anyone. The client isn’t dumb and it was a simple question, I didn’t need to spell it out for them. Plus I know how to talk on a god damn phone, but I sounded stupid because someone was freaking out, causing me to almost have a panic attack. Now the clients won’t trust someone who sounds confused, and they’ll talk to me like I’m stupid.
No one has faith in me and my capabilities, not even for the simplest of tasks. I’m a smart person, I just have intelligence-crippling anxiety.
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I Like You by Alan Arkin
I like you
Cuz you don’t make me nervous
I met someone like you before
But only once or twice
Once or twice, and not very recently
You’ll do
My blood pressure’s normal
I haven’t lost no sleep at all
Not since Francine
And it’s possible for me to concentrate on my work
I’m glad
I’m not walking on air
And no trumpets
Go off in my ear
I don’t say to myself,
“Get ahold of myself!”
And I don’t get a rash when you’re near
You’re trustworthy
I wouldn’t worry
If I hadda go away for a few weeks
You don’t nag me for money all the time
And one thing I forgot
You’re a very good cook
And I certainly love to eat.
My heart totally goes out to you. I’m way over qualified for the job I do yet the lead doesn’t think I can set up a laptop video screen. Makes me insane.
Yes exactly. I would say I’m overqualified for the position they have me in. And I’m a lot smarter than they think, but they won’t allow me to prove it because of the few times they’ve given me a spontaneous way to prove it and I wasn’t mentally prepared for it, so I sounded like I’ve never been to school a day in my life. Not only could I not think of an answer immediately, but I couldn’t even form a coherent sentence. So now they look past me for opportunities and they talk to me like I’m slow.