Today has gone kinda of smooth felt shit waking up and most of the morning then afternoon seemed to level out now at home and can’t stop fucking eating maybe it’s the anti depressants ? Or am I comfort eating ? Or trying to fill that void inside there is always that void inside I don’t no what it is but I no I always need it filled with food drink sex etc why is that void there what is that void I really don’t know but I really hate my weight I’m not over weight I just think I’m fat but I’m not it’s weird but I do know when you start putting on weight it’s easier to gain then loose so that’s what is pissing me off I can’t stop eating cause I don’t want to put on weight WTF
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Hey drowning, you seem to be doing a little better tonight. I totally get the eating thing When I was younger one of my favorite things to do was eat until i couldn’t eat any more then throw it all up go and eat a bunch more, throw up, rinse repeat. I’d do this all night long. Not quite what you are doing but I understand the food compulsion.
I stopped doing it when I moved to Texas so I take that as a sign that the is the right place to live. Replacing the bad stuff with healthy stuff to compete with it is hard, and you have to stick with it, which is even harder. I went on weight watchers three years ago. I really like it because I eat health but I can eat all day long all I want because most fruit and veggies are free, including cooked. I still have days when I eat an entire box of Poptarts or bag of marshmallows but mostly I eat healthy.
No idea if this helped or now. What you wrote just reminded me of all this.