so, this first post is kind of hard for me. I found SP a week ago, and honestly i don’t know what i am searching for. I don’t know if i have a depression or anxiety. What I do know is that I, a girl from Holland, am sad. It gets worse every day. I don’t want to be sad and my situation is probably not as bad as i think, because I have a mother and a sister that I love so much. My father is another story, but I’m not going to tell that right now. That man made me feel like a worthless piece of shit. The only thing that makes me ‘happy’, is when I’m sailing. Thats the only moment when i can literally float away from my problems and leave my feelings behind. But as soon as i come back to land, its like my feet weigh a 100 pounds and every stap feels like a mile. I feel like nobody wants me to be alive.
Some people say they’re sorry for wasting your time while u read this post, but I’m not going to. I don’t want to be sad, but i can’t help it. I want to die
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whyme9232, SAIL! YOU GET TO SAIL!!!! 🙂 You are lucky i’m in the stinking desert! no water! just snakes and tumble weeds! it gets to be 120 degree’s here! the only thing that helps me is to go to bed! far as being happy, nobody’s that happy, we just have good moments and bad ones, don’t think only about the bad one’s.
Welcome to SP!
Sailing sounds like a good way to pass the time and let go of some stress.
I wish I could do that. 🙂
Welcome whyme. I uaed to get that same feeling from surfing. Its amazing hey. Sad thing is I havent surfed in 7 years.
Get back to sailing as much as u can. It might just save u.
welcome, friend!
there’s a big, loving community here at suicideproject here for you. I’m glad you’ve found this place, and quite jealous that you get to sail! that sounds so peaceful.
I love going out on the water, haven’t been sailing in forever but remember what it was like.