Alpha

i dunno, sometimes i think you haff to hav a ‘tough attitude’. “fuck it, i ain’t doing it. i can tough this out.” …try to shut off, at least close away for a little bit the vulnerability, least around certain people. i mean, everything can hurt and if you feel it all without some kind of walls, especially for prolonged periods i think… it makes surviving really difficult. it’s shiv though when someone lets down their guard and there’s an unexpected attack. hard to open back up..

offtopicish. we live in a politically correct era, everything is offensive. there’s a tactful way to phrase most things, but yeah. tact is kinda difficult. always more than one side, anyway. really everyone’s terrible about something or other in their own right…

still, you didn’t harm yourself. nice end result regardless how you got there.
and yeah, there’s still coffee, though i discovered chocolate covered coffee beans, like em better than a cupfull.

.. talke care, anony. i get a semisad sense whenever i see your name pop up, but you’re one of those i keep in my thoughts.