wasting the day -_-

So I went to sleep pre early (7pm) yesterday (was later than I wanted as my old favorite person ended up wanting to talk for a bit,which was nice) and woke up fairly late today (like 5pm) -_- so yeah just casually slept a bit over 20 hours, no bit deal…. but later today (is almost 1am now) I have a doctors appointment, and then a few hours after that finals…. that should be fun…. not sure I’ll catch up with my reading here, it goes on for like 2 pages for what I haven’t read…. I want to though -_- (I spent the rest of today playing video games, which is something I haven’t done for a long time, which I should feel bad about) so I guess today was pre good…. So I have to pass my final tomorrow and if I don’t welp bad things will happen…. but I am not going to study I guess, is a bit late for that I will just wing it. if I fail I guess there is no shame in taking the class a sixth time -_- grrrr…. I need a 60% on the final to pass, I’m sure I can get that…. I have been getting consistent 50%’s on the other exams, however this should be a bit heavier in some of the things I’m better at since this is also covering a bit of what was towards the end of the quarter (which is a stronger field for me) so hopefully that can carry me, if not oh well I’ll just try harder next time -_- or just give up and die, either is an option…. well see how my summer quarter goes first. Although now my friend seems to be being a little more supportive…. apparently passively mentioning that he feels like I suck at everything made him decide to mention a few things that he feels I could out preform him in, so I guess that’s good. So now I’m drawing him a pretty pretty picture ^_^ as he still claims to be in need of things to cover his walls with, and somehow most of the drawings he has are shit, and not made by children (I asked last time I was there, I assumed his young niece drew it for him, but nope it wasn’t -_- ) although maybe the entire motivation for his compliments was so I would draw him something as he did state specifically that he really likes some of my things, the ones that use the hatching. So I have no idea…. Also apparently he doesn’t want me to kill myself either, he did bring that up too -_- so no idea, maybe he doesn’t hate me? Oh yeah, and also we went to a restaurant which was nice ^_^ although it was a sort of fill a bowl kind of thing and then they cooked it, and I ended up with a child sized bowl because I was very nervous about the idea of over filling the bowl…. so opps…. I didn’t quite think about how things cook down quite a bit :/ but it was nice…. but now at least I know I do not really like that style of restaurant, and that if I go again to grab a large bowl to fill since I won’t do the entire build a tower of things approach that my friend does -_- I wanted to keep the raw ingredients below the top of the bowl…. -_- And the other person we were with had a bowl of mostly lemon…. And we were casually having conversations about rape and human trafficking, which the waitress told us to stop -_- opps…. but it was decently toned down…. I enjoyed yesterday ^_^ was fun.