I can’t say if it’s true for you (I hope it isn’t), but I feel like it’s true for me.
I’m single and disabled and I live alone, and because of my social anxiety I do not let anyone in my home. So nobody is used to coming over and checking on me. If I was to die there, it would be a very very very long time before anyone found me.
If you want someone to notice then you’re dying for the wrong reason. Perhaps what you want or need is the company of others and are lonely. It may help to try to reach out and make friends.
Speaking personally-I have a handful of friends and family members I’m in touch with. As a result I can’t really afford to lose any contacts but sometimes arguments/conflicts can’t be avoided. I’ve had to begrudgingly keep some people in my life because if I cut everyone off who is a scumbag and didn’t deserve my friendship, I’d have no one left.
And the thing is that other people aren’t any better-the grass isn’t greener on the other side…so I hang on to the group I have. Though in time when my life improves I’ll be definitely widening my circle (I used to have a ton of friends when I was younger but we all drifted apart).
I once reached a point where I had no immediate friends (long distance friends excluded) and I felt truly alone, despite having family. So I can fully understand if someone has literally no one in their lives that they’d want to end it.
We’re sensitive social creatures and need other people in our lives to feel good about ourselves. So ya if I was all alone with no hope of ever having good healthy relationships, then I’d probably consider suicide more seriously than I’ve done before.
Thats my problem. Many people would notice and i don’t want that. I want to be alone with no interaction with people and just have a peaceful life until my end.
On a world scale no one will notice. On a micro scale I would notice. Specific people would notice. My living in this world has an effect on other people who interact with me. In passing, intimately or casually. We each touch one another in ways we don’t see. There is someone in your life you touch and you don’t know it. You may never know it, but you being here, breathing, helps that person to walk forward every day. Why not walk forward?
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I can’t say if it’s true for you (I hope it isn’t), but I feel like it’s true for me.
I’m single and disabled and I live alone, and because of my social anxiety I do not let anyone in my home. So nobody is used to coming over and checking on me. If I was to die there, it would be a very very very long time before anyone found me.
I’m sorry. I feel you take my body and let me die. Depressed. 🙁
If you want someone to notice then you’re dying for the wrong reason. Perhaps what you want or need is the company of others and are lonely. It may help to try to reach out and make friends.
Speaking personally-I have a handful of friends and family members I’m in touch with. As a result I can’t really afford to lose any contacts but sometimes arguments/conflicts can’t be avoided. I’ve had to begrudgingly keep some people in my life because if I cut everyone off who is a scumbag and didn’t deserve my friendship, I’d have no one left.
And the thing is that other people aren’t any better-the grass isn’t greener on the other side…so I hang on to the group I have. Though in time when my life improves I’ll be definitely widening my circle (I used to have a ton of friends when I was younger but we all drifted apart).
I once reached a point where I had no immediate friends (long distance friends excluded) and I felt truly alone, despite having family. So I can fully understand if someone has literally no one in their lives that they’d want to end it.
We’re sensitive social creatures and need other people in our lives to feel good about ourselves. So ya if I was all alone with no hope of ever having good healthy relationships, then I’d probably consider suicide more seriously than I’ve done before.
I meant that I had a quarrel with my friends and we didn’t talk for a short period of time but became friends again after that.
Well, someone would notice pretty soon, don’t worry about it. But we all have those feelings.
How to think positively. I’m super negative and I’m afraid of future.
Thats my problem. Many people would notice and i don’t want that. I want to be alone with no interaction with people and just have a peaceful life until my end.
I like that idea. Isolation is good. But sometimes my mind starting to change. I feel I’m useless creature. People judging me so badly.
On a world scale no one will notice. On a micro scale I would notice. Specific people would notice. My living in this world has an effect on other people who interact with me. In passing, intimately or casually. We each touch one another in ways we don’t see. There is someone in your life you touch and you don’t know it. You may never know it, but you being here, breathing, helps that person to walk forward every day. Why not walk forward?