It just hit me i have an opportunity. Im going to try because fuck it why not and sorry for posting back to back. I could have edited my original post. However im just going to post my plans. I’m about to go to the gym. Come back and when my mom is sleep hang myself in the bathroom. My little sister who has the closest room to the hallway bathroom wont be home. The inevitable involuntary struggle from a successful hanging wont be audible to my mom. Also, as sad as it is i dont really care how it may effect her. I’ll lock the bathroom door im not completely heartless but i have to go. Otherwise i want the pain to end. This pain this anger this pointless madness it must end it simply must. Oh and to those wondering why work out if youre going to kill yourself its because of how unreliable the exit is.
Edit: Leaving the gym after doing nothing. Ive felt queasy on and off all day and i have no motivation. Maybe if i fail my attempt I’ll come back
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Don’t kill yourself in your house. It will have a terrible effect on your mother and sister when they find your body. And your house will just become a graveyard. I think it’s a bad idea
You’re right but i don’t care anymore in a hundred years they won’t remember it
Man, this is really a bad idea. Your mother and sister will be traumatized and suffer a lot. I completely understand your pain, I also have a severe depression and think about my death everyday. My pain is so deep that it became a something physical. But I gave up to do anything in my house. My relatives don’t deserve this.
Think about it.
Of couse at this point we can’t care about others, but if you decide to do it, do in another place
I feel asleep on the couch so i couldn’t really attempt its too late. Depending on how things go I’ll go with my real plan (gun shot off a bridge) as early as this coming weekend.