who takes all the rewards at the end? who is it that makes the most money off me? and why should i do this? why should i struggle to live this “life”. Why is it wrong to plug my life out of me and die? if i dont enjoy living why should i keep living?
What is there to gain?
Everyone i know hates me, i dont have money to live on my own and i am not good at anything and dont find anything amusing enough to even try.
For this christmass i wish only this.
My heart, stop pumping.
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Yes, I feel you. And you have no idea how awesome the afterlife can be. There is a feeling of expansion. But our life still has a meaning. That’s why we are here. And there are also the hell realms in afterlife.
This is my point of view.
i dont know it either, but, if you are going to do it anyway, why dont try the things you find interesting at least one time?
go draw, paint, dance, make sex, have some drugs, go on a journey, go on a fight, take care of a pet, visit your family, and if, in the end, you really know that you didnt like being alive, you tried, and you can rest in peace now.
at least, is how im going with my life. the exit door is aways there anyways.
I like the list of things you suggest. One last glorious week of excess before the clay under my toes crumbles and I fall into hot soot. Yes.
i think that, if it is going to end anyway, i will make what i want to do, without fear of losing what i already dont have.
I often wonder why it is considered bad to kill oneself. We did not choose to enter this world but we should be able to choose when to leave it. I see these cancer patients who try everything in their power and go into insane debt just to get that extra week of life. And here I am begging for death.