Perhaps it was six months ago when I realised I’d stopped buying things.. You know, the usual kind of things.. Shoes, homeware things, linen, ramekins (love ramekins), I stopped buying fabric, visits to my two favourite shops became less frequent.. I haven’t bought any music or clothes for probably 3 or 4 months…
Just this week I noticed I won’t ever have to by shampoo or conditioner again because schwarzkoph was on sale a while back for 3 bucks a pop and I stocked up on that shit..
Im not going back to the spice shop or this organic place I like to buy chilli oil from.. I will have to visit the butcher and the vegetable shop but that’s pretty much it aside from the supermarket for things like coffee and milk and T paper. Actually I do have to buy face moisturiser.. mine ran out today and iv decided I don’t wanna use this shea butter one that someone gave me. It’s gross on the face.. It’s a strange feeling.. this sort of at ease kinda feeling that I felt when I realised that I’m preparing.. Im in fuckin preparation mode… Winning.
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Yeah I stopped buying real food weeks ago .. I wear the same handful of cloths as well . I have to go to the shops today .. Already put it off for hours ..
I know that feeling.. I dread leaving the house sometimes.. especially on those days.. I’m always finding different ways to get to work avoiding the streets.. I use alleyways or walk through carparks. Some parts are unavoidable though.. Most days I wait till its dark to visit the supermarket..
At least you have money to buy things still. It’s over. I am also preparing. I’m done trying. This is what, “they” want for us, instead of helping. To get rid of people like us. They are insanely wrong. They will never experience the magic that can happen here cause they destroyed the dreamers in the name of winning. There is no reason to try anymore, there’s nothing good left. The clothes are shit, if you do find cotton anything, it isnt organic, cotton crops are sprayed with chemicals. If it is organic, it costs out the ass and is ugly cut. I just wish it were easier to leave.
Are ‘they’ society? ‘Costs out the ass and is ugly cut’ hahahaha.. Your hilarious.. I do agree with you sgiksw shitty clothing is pretty shit.. Sometimes you can get great cuts and vintage fabrics from second hand shops.. They don’t cost an arm and a leg and the people there are lovely and weird..
I havent bought music in years. I dont even listen to it anymore, its all dark and negative and a bunch of asshole attention whores.
Your comments are great.. I don’t know if it’s due to my severe lack of sleep but ‘it’s all dark and negative and a bunch of asshole attention whores’ has got me giggling… I think this applys to relatively new music, you know, top 40 shit where the music and the artists voice has been so mastered you can almost hear the buttons being pushed for auto tune..
*applies and i don’t actually know if you push a button for autotune.. could be a twist of a knob for all I know..
Im talking ALL music. Its all written by depressed ass holes wamting attetion, the lyrics are VERy oppressive, name me a happy song, that is also musically interesting. I studied music and recording for years. I dont need to be brought down when i listen to it.meven the keys or tones are depressing. Im not saying music cojlsnt be what it shojld be but what it has been sucks. I thought nk hitler had music autotuned to a lower frequency? So that it couldnt be used to lift us up and would keep us oppressed and that frequency has stuck.
Not autotuned, stupid spellcheck. Cant they get anything roght?
I’ll admit sgiksw.. I’m a big fan of melancholy music.. Im listening to Bob Dylan’s ‘Don’t think twice’ right now. I never studied music like you have I just like what I like.. Is it true that Hitler also had subliminal lyrics/messages in music that would blare out of speakers for all to hear??
I’m hearing ya all. I’ve gave up on the most basic things. Used to enjoy reading, watching tv, exercising etc, now I just cant be bothered. What’s the point in wathing the latest series on Netflix when I ain’t gonna be around to see the next one? I don’t buy any new clothes either, what’s the point when I ain’t gonna any use out of em?
Do tell me more if you like Woody.. Are you planning yr exit soon too? I’ve had Netflix for about two years now.. Everytime I feel as though im in the mood to chill I can’t for the life of me settle on something to watch..
I end up flicking through and reading the blurbs and not being very interested.. I don’t know if it’s my mood or if Netflix is just really shit here..
It’s an insightful point “thislifewasntmeantfirme”
No music, no clothes shopping (and I used to do this constantly), no Tv, nothing interests me except for getting my ends in order, as you say…preparing. And I do something strange, I check to see who’s died on google. Like I found out on xmas about george Michael and for some reason this is something I do. I also feel comfortable on this site. And watching YouTube videos on death.
Hi lovely..hope yr are ok today??
Ooooh can you recommened something for me to watch??
I watched something not so long ago which took you through the process of death with no next of kin.. Not a suicide doc, just dying of natural causes.. Interesting all the same
Hi Sweet “thislifewasnotmeantforme ”
I was particularly dreadful today to the point that I need to get a prescription for Oxy or something to numb the emotions. So tmrw I will schedule an apptmt because the NyQuil only works so far without me feeling abdominal pain. How did you fare today?
Oh yes definitely let me send you a few links I’d luv to know your thoughts or if they interest you
Let me find some and I’ll send them straight away
This is not on topic but it’s calming
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kyp3qmy2O38
On topic:
http://www.abuddhistlibrary.com/Buddhism/D%20-%20Chinese%20Mahayana%20Buddhism/Authors/Hsing%20Yun/When%20We%20Die/19%20When%20We%20Die.htm
There are many parts to this search for part one etc this one is part 2:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PLcron80oPb3sA6ekgtbbelo5KdCy032iv¶ms=EAEYATgBSAFYeGILX3NtdTZxdjV4R0Vodg%253D%253D&v=nk_9nSVtWSc&mode=NORMAL
If you like this one, there’s a lot of these videos about Swedenborg on YouTube that you can find. Do you know of him?
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=RZaOR2xnD_w
Also, solitarySoul sent me this yesterday and it’s the best:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yCtwWk9N6zg
I hope it helps you love