I never wanted any of this to happen but it did.
I never wanted to feel this way but I do.
I’m tired of faking my interests and smiles.
Cutting never helps, it never helped me feel
in control.
But I liked the pain, the feeling like a flicker of fire dragging across your bare skin.
But then it’s gone and I’m left numb… with nothing else but the scattered thoughts that are jumbled in my head.
I may seem crazy and people can have their judgments about me, but I’m just like everyone else yet I just have more problems then they’ll ever have.
But yet again I never asked for any of this.
And it’s stuck with me until I find a way to climb my way out of the dark hole that is suffocating me….
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Truth. I feel this way a lot.
Yeah It’s not very fun..
It’s the worst feeling ever. I was adopted and I think every morning. Why the hell didn’t you just abort me and then I wouldn’t have to go through any of this pain. It makes me feel like a selfish lil ***** but truthfully I didn’t ask for nor want this life and if she didn’t want me why didn’t she just end it before it started so I don’t have to.
Yes it is, I don’t know what it’s like being adopted or having to switch to different parents…. but I get what you mean by not wanting the life you have. I feel that the life I have is to rough for me that I’m not strong enough or stable enough to live through it. Sometimes there’s those moment where I feel the need to give up.