God that I hate so much: my love for that person really hurts.
So Valentine’s day is coming, and I’ll tell her my feelings. I do not expect a positive answer. Her personality is so overwhelming that I can’t handle it. She’s so strong, she needs a strong person by her side. I’m not what she needs or what she’s looking for.
But she feels that nobody loves her, and I want to change that. I want her to see that she can be loved, if I love her with all my soul it means there will be other people who will love her too.
She’s perfect. Not in a “flawless” way. She’s so human, she’s passionate but also is fragile when facing real life. I love her voice, her words, her soul. How I would love to wipe her tears away and be with her and help her whenever she needs it.
Ahh I will miss her, that’s for sure. I won’t talk to her again, I’ll disappear from all social networks after I do it.
God that I hate so much, if I were to ask you something, it would be:
Don’t let me forget her voice
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ah kamikada
firstly
you are a strong person
i read your posts…y mi corazón duele por tí, y no sé que decir, and I cry and and I don’t say anything, none of my words seem adequate, i just think about you a lot…but you are so, so strong
maybe in a different way from her, but you are
secondly,
i’m sorry that you’re hurting
i’m sure that if you love someone…you will be the person they need..
i really hope she sees that
i hope she sees that she can be loved too
and why will you disappear from social networks after you say it to her? why will you not talk to her again?
anyway
good luck. i hope it goes better than you think. don’t be afraid to tell her everything…sometimes you don’t get many chances. sometimes people don’t know how much they need each other
but if it doesn’t work out…
remember it doesn’t mean you are weak, or unworthy, or anything like that
you are strong, and deserve to be happy
i don’t say that lightly, you really do
*ay, i mean kamidaka
sorry about that
Hey! Thank you for your kind words. And you know what? Those words you said “but you are so, so strong, maybe in a different way from her” really really hit me. A lot of people have told me that, and now that I think about it, maybe I am. We both are strong, but in different ways, and one of the reasons I love her so much is that she’s so different from me, even in this aspect.
I won’t talk to her again because rejection would be my end, and the uncertainty of her answer gives me more peace than an actual one. But I wanted to tell her my feelings.
Thank you once again, your words got me thinking for a while.
I was writing this long post but… idk, i guess it’s simpler than what i wrote previously: only her knows what she needs and wants, so don’t be so quick to jump into conclusions. Many things that you wrote kinda prove that you’re indeed strong in several ways, so all i can do is wish you good luck, whatever happens at least you’ll give a try and that’s something most people wouldn’t do.
Thank you! And the reason I said I’m not the one for her is because she has described several time how her ideal partner would be, and I don’t fit the description at all. Maybe some little traits here and there, but not the whole picture. Also because we live such different realities.