I haven’t posted in ages. Mainly because I have been doing better. That said my mom just chewed me out for being a fuck up for the 2nd week in a row and i cant disagree with her at all. I do have fucked up priorities. I am taking my job and situation for granted. I am too old to be so irresponsible. She believes my recent slide is depression based. I dont directly disagree with that either. However, I haven’t been nearly as depressed as i used to be. I believe ive just had a lax attitude in general. I hope to use her nagging as the canary in the coal mine so to speak. A warning before major consequences occurs. What has her up in arms you may ask? A noticeable uptake in substance abuse(weed and liquor), consistently late to work, a minor car accident, spending money on electronics instead of necessities like a bed.
These aren’t things a 29 year old should do. Even now i childishly hope i have a fatal heart attack to avoid facing the consequences of my own ineptitude and stupidity. Currently my job has said nothing about my tardiness. I definitely have plenty of opportunity to turn things around. I’m legitimately embarrassed of myself. My life has been consistently shitty until now honestly. I finally have a decent opportunity after years of despair and im taking it for granted with no one but myself to blame. I plan on taking this as a wake up call and getting my shit together instead of feeling sorry for myself.
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I hope you can truly get it together. I’m rooting for you, bro.
Well, if it makes you feel any better, I’m a responsible fuck up and I am going to kill myself.
I’m sorry to hear that. How does one fuck up responsibly though?
Ha ha.
Hey! You sound better than you did months ago. Honestly I wondered what happened to you. Glad things are going better for you.
I am honestly. Just havin a rough week or 2 and smoking and drinking too much on top of it lol. I didn’t think anyone noticed i was here to notice i was gone.