Nobody gives a shit about anyone
I feel so bad I can’t believe it’s possible to feel this bad and be alive
These two relatives I stay with are a nightmare, they kill me. They are my “mother” and my “grandmother”. They talk shit all the time
I feel like shooting myself but I don’t have a gun
I feel tortured, I can’t get rid of my demons
I’m 27, take pills, no friends, hurting, alone, no money, no job, not my own family, kids, car, home. Trapped
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I’m not worried about getting a job and I never want kids because I am going to shoot myself eventually. Just need to do odds and ends jobs to get the money for the gun. Can’t run away from a nightmare. I feel the pills make it worse. I would take off on foot to get around. Wouldn’t want to stay with them 7 days a week and never get time away from them. I am in same situation but I am younger. I hope to end my life before I’m as old as you! I’m actually applying for disability for gun money.
The difference between not being able to do anything and not caring amount to the same thing.
Thanks both for replies
No problem, No cry day.
What kind of pills do you take?
Just my two cents, but when I was on psychiatric medication, I never had any motivation to change my life for the better. I just got more and more frustrated with the world as time went by.
It has actually taken me a long time to deprogram that mindset, and I am still working on it.
Don’t be sad, my friend. Family, car, home – if they come, they will come, if not, the most important thing is that you have yourself and your own agency, your own values.
You can change your life. It’s not easy, but you can try to do it slowly, like a river grinding through rock, slowly, slowly.
You can put your life back on track and gradually free yourself of your burdensome worries. Delight in simply being alive, smelling the air, feeling the breeze, smiling at a stranger.
Be kind to yourself.
All the best.
Thanks for these words. I take depakine, anxiar and netiapin.
I totally get it. I posted my email address here and there. If you need someone to talk to and listen… I’m here. Sistermetalx @ Gmail.
I’ve posted about my shitty life. It really sucks. But I keep on going forward… Keeping the hope that things will get better one day.
Okay, I hope you reach happiness
I will find happiness when I help others in some way that makes their day not so bad. *hugs*
I searched your name, is it you who got beaten and had a 23 year old bf?
I replied to you back then
Sister Disgrace, Just seeing that you did not leave the building made my day better.
My soon to be ex husband is 23. I’m 37.
I’ve dealt with domestic violence all my life.
I’m completely alone in this world. No family nor friends that are here for me not even verbally. It hurts so much that I can’t turn to someone for help.
What happened to family and friends? Where are they?
That sounds really difficult. It seems like an important step, opening up a bit more about your situation and how you are feeling. I know how intolerable it can get being alone. The support people show here is all that gets me through the day sometimes, even if I’m only lurking, it helps me to see these caring people offering support. I agree with what muspelhem said, for me pills only made my issues much worse. I know Anxiar is crazy addictive. Found that out the hard way.