At night, I find myself preparing for a great fight for my future, right before falling a sleep.
and then…..
It’s morning, I’m fully awaken, my mind is processing everything better than what it does at night…. but.. my will to fight is nowhere near me.
Why is that?
Even more, I fully understand my goals, and why they are important, but I lack friends to tell them about it. I lack a relationship to feel wanted. I lack the family to be a part of. And worse, I lack time to have for my own dreams.
I decided to do some changes around here, and thought to share with you [random people]:
1. Time out for social media when : – studying, – after 17:00
2. Tell the paper -> If there is no one to listen, then I would just write it on a paper/internet. So I could feel relievea about telling it/ saying it.
3. Focus on goals and progress -> Remind me “why”
4. Choose a way/ Concur achievements -> Set plans for today
5. Workout -> This helps me keep my self esteem up, and relieve stress.
Maybe this post isn’t the usual “I want to die”, and maybe it is not that interesting. I wrote “momentum” at the topic, because I feel like I lose my momentum few times a year. I feel that I’m more boosted to change and ‘do’ when I’m down with fears, than when I’m up with joy.
Perhaps most of the users didn’t even click in, but those who read this line: I would love to hear from you, what is your opinion? what do you struggle with? How do you cope sickness?
Stay strong, be brave, Jac.