Last time I posted on here I was hopeful about not having any urges to self harm. Unfortunately I have relapsed after 40 days clean, longer than I had gone in a very long time. My hopeful spell came from leaving a long term relationship and feeling those burdens be lifted but my relapse came from seeing an update in my ex’s life.
I will try not to let this relapse taint my recovery and continue to work on my own happiness and independence.
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I was curious what your plan is, specifically, if you don’t mind sharing it? I’m an addict too, but in different ways. Maybe what you do could work for me, too.
Hey relapses happen. I’m currently in a relapse blizzard and can’t find my way out. If I could go back to the day after it happened, I would tell myself to stop thinking about absolutes (how many days clean) and instead think about percentage (days clean vs all days). So in your case if you went 40 days clean and 1 day messed up, instead of thinking “I just ruined a 40 day streak” you could say “I’m 40/41 clean = 97.5%”
And if you’re clean 1 more day then it’ll be 41/42 = 97.6% So there’s that positive incentive of seeing how close you are to the goal.
Whatever strategy you do, fight like hell to avoid falling back into the trap. Yk that voice inside that says “back to rock bottom”, that’s what kills us.
Thank you a a lot, thinking of it as a percent really helped my mindset <3