hi
I am 15 years old, and every day I fell like I don’t belong and I feel that when people call me fat or ugly that I need to just leave this world so they will not have to look at me, the age at when I felt this way was when I was 9 years old and my birth mom got back on drugs and I have not talked to her sinc, so u see it was when she chose drugs over me over my siblings but they are so happy with there lives then there is me all alone you see they don’t get why I feel this Way, why every nigh I stay in my bed listening to sad piano music but on some days I fell that there is no reason to get up out of bed, but I do and I just need to stay strong and to try to be happy even tho sometimes it doesn’t work.
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I totally know the feeling dude I been there myself I just channel it all in my dark poetry. I act fucking crazy in public I don’t care makes me feel a little better then the agony and pain I always feel. Never had any human interactions at all when I was your age plus I learned to enjoy my own company. Hope all goes well for you dude.
No matter what anyone else says you should kill yourself if you don’t appeal to their eyes they will rape you molest you assault you beat you inject you with pills, all completely unwarranted, especially if you are docile and passive all the time. The only times they will not hurt you is when you are sitting completely silent and they know that you are writhing in pain from what they have done to you. Then out of the blue they will hurt you again.
There really is NO REASON to stay alive
Life gets worse every single year on earth.
If you can wait until 18, you can buy a gun off an Internet forum or at a gun show.
If you can’t buy a gun, you can slit your throat with your sharpest kitchen knife
If you can’t do any of that you can jump off the tallest building in your town or if you can’t get to top off of a cliff.
Other things you can do is pray to die spontaneously
If you alike me don’t see anything getting better then you can enact such suggestions.
There is such thing as having no mental health issues but a psychological desire to die.
If you think it is mental health issue just watch a bunch of porn and molest children or woman who don’t want it.
Pills do not work . A mental
Health problem is a term that was created by a greedy bastard who wanted to insult people he didn’t like so they can never feel happy again and feed them pills that don’t do anything but hurt the brain and internals of the body.
Sorry to hear. I’ve been there, too. But I’m still here. Keep hanging in there & know that you are never alone. And always speak up. If you need to report something or just want some support, seek someone with authority (a parent, a teacher, a councillor) who you can trust.
Don’t do the things the other commenter said. It won’t help one bit. You’re better than that & you deserve better than that. And don’t listen to the bullies. They cut you down because you’re special & beautiful. Block out what they’re saying. It’s hard and can be easier said than done, but once you get the hang of just ignoring them, you’ll be better for it. Please always know that you are more than who they say you are.
You Are Great.
Also, do something good that you enjoy. Watch some funny videos and listen to some great songs. Go for a run or do some silly drawings 🙂 Sometimes you just have to acknowledge the circumstances and just make the most of life, and then the circumstances might improve 🙂 The fact that you get out of bed when you’re a bit down is a sign of your incredible strength and inspiring hope (its actually really motivating, thank you!).
You’ll be ok 🙂 God Bless you.