Dear Mom,
  Why? Why did yew do it, was it really worth it? This tore me too shreds, and yew don’t realize this. I asked yew why, yew said to “go away.” No one wants yew do go away. Yew say yer fine, but deep inside yew know yew aren’t. This was not yer answer; do yew understand how hard it is to wake up at 1:15 in the morning at the age of 13, with yew passed out at the end of my bed? I tried and tried to wake yew up, at first yew was unresponisive; but yew finally woke up. Tears flooded my eyes, and yew didn’t care. I’m only 13, I’m still just a child. I can only take so much til’ I start shutting down from this world. Everyone puts their problems on me, as if I’m a glutten for other peoples misery. I have been forced to grow up mentally, since the age of 7. I have dealt with dad and Justin fist fighting, yew and Justin fighting. I’ve had to call the cops to many times in my 13 years. Yew act like just because I’m a child, that I have nothing whatsoever to worry about. That’s impossible, when I’m holding onto yew and dad by such a small thread. I don’t know what else to do. Why can’t my life be simple? I have an acholic father, who yew are so set on divorcing. I have a brother, who doesn’t think about anyone but himself, and then I have yew, that no matter how hard I try I can’t please yew; who apparently makes me feel worthless, and like I was a mistake. But, ofcourse I love yew with everything in me. But yet, yew tried to overdose. Mother, I don’t know what to do anymore; how do I please yew, why do yew expect me to deal with so much? Damn, I really think yew don’t know what I’m going through right now. Maybe I should be the one gone.. wouldn’t yew agree?
I’M JUST A FUCKING KID, GIVE ME A BREAK!
2 comments
You have a right to be a kid. Having said that, you do have recourses and you should use them. I don’t know your mom but obviously she needs help and you cant help her but you can do what my daughter did 2 years ago she walked out of my life. I was angry in the beginning but today I’m glad she did. Today, she has a life and she’s happy. For your sake and if your serious then get out and tell someone at school. It may not be a simple thing to do but if you really cant stand it anymore then help yourself. Trust me your mom, dad and brother will survive and when all said and done you will be the winner. There all adults your the kid. YOU HAVE RIGHTS. and your not being selfish the ones who are selfish are your mom and dad.
I do have rights, and I am tired of dealing with it; but in all reality, it’d be way to hard to walk out of my moms life. Do I think about it sometimes? Of course I do, because I don’t wanna deal with the weight of her’s and my dad’s problems anymore. Their well-being is becoming my main priority in my life, and I’m totally forgetting about my own. My mother is my world, and I really don’t know where I’d be without her today. My mom has done so much for me in the long run, but when she yells at me; and it gets to the point I feel worthless, and I mutilate my body beyond my own recognition.. that’s when I just don’t wanna be here anymore. I honestly, do not think anyone understands the pain and depression I’ve dealt with since the age of 8.