Yeah I am actually facing prison consequences right now = I can’t leave my house + I can probably never drive again + I had one alternative to suicide and that was to be a truck driver (I thought either drive trucks or kill myself) and now I can’t drive trucks + I’ve walked 1000 miles in last 13 months.
And I wasn’t even driving
I was also not drunk
But I mean I was already planning to kill my self
(Was actually trying to be dead as soon as I turned 18…so the only thing I’ve been working toward the past 5 years is ending my life)
These punishment won’t do anything but make me want to end my life sooner/hurt myself more
I’m just struggling with the final push… I bought a gun and everything then it was taken away by people I would never even give any time of day to.
Now I have to get another gun (if I had friends – I mean real friends – it would probably be easier to get a gun because real friends would help you complete suicide if that is what you – their friend – needed)
I guess I am going the charcoal route ?
Or if I can wait until I get a little money I can jump off cliff ?
Maybe I’ll slit my throat ?
Overdose on anti-anxiety ? I don’t know.
A real prison is this reality that we live in. Murderes, rapists, sadists, & pedos live together with us in this fukin prison what bs is this? Why? I hate this greedy planet all the bad people get what they want while we the good suffer.
CODS I swear I hope one day we leave in peace and in ease
Some people say that the body is a prison for the soul – and I think I agree. I mean, why do souls need bodies for? Why manifest at all? What is the point? Why does the universe even need us? If the universe knows how to make a star or a black hole, why does it need us to explain it? Completely pointless.
You don’t need to waste time asking those questions you need to get yourself somewhere safe you need to know what to stay away from and if there’s no where safe then you know what to do.
Yes, this is an actually prison. I can’t leave this country because my mother is a politician who can close borders whenever she wants. I tried, cops chased me, I was back. She broke my leg as a “symbol”. I can’t leave, and I’m tired of trying.
I have similar situation
My neck was broken
I’ve been chased by cops 9x
I was raped once
Molested 40ish times bordering on rape
I was put in coma for 5 days
My plan is to leave quietly and camoflauge
Head to wooded areas/ or mountains
Hope to God day I chose to go nobody is shoving their neck in my business
Or I kill myself I can’t decide
I had it pretty good for a while
I got to hide in my car
(Only place I could be safe. Only place the nightmares wouldn’t follow me )
I could never go far though
Though my goal was to leave town and head east
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I do
I feel like I live in hell
Yeah I am actually facing prison consequences right now = I can’t leave my house + I can probably never drive again + I had one alternative to suicide and that was to be a truck driver (I thought either drive trucks or kill myself) and now I can’t drive trucks + I’ve walked 1000 miles in last 13 months.
And I wasn’t even driving
I was also not drunk
But I mean I was already planning to kill my self
(Was actually trying to be dead as soon as I turned 18…so the only thing I’ve been working toward the past 5 years is ending my life)
These punishment won’t do anything but make me want to end my life sooner/hurt myself more
I’m just struggling with the final push… I bought a gun and everything then it was taken away by people I would never even give any time of day to.
Now I have to get another gun (if I had friends – I mean real friends – it would probably be easier to get a gun because real friends would help you complete suicide if that is what you – their friend – needed)
I guess I am going the charcoal route ?
Or if I can wait until I get a little money I can jump off cliff ?
Maybe I’ll slit my throat ?
Overdose on anti-anxiety ? I don’t know.
A real prison is this reality that we live in. Murderes, rapists, sadists, & pedos live together with us in this fukin prison what bs is this? Why? I hate this greedy planet all the bad people get what they want while we the good suffer.
CODS I swear I hope one day we leave in peace and in ease
I mean the people who I would never give time of day to wouldn’t stop following me and that is why they knew I had a gun.
They were snooping in my shit and they followed me like 15 more times since then
It’s fucking terrifying
I know we live in a prison.
Some people say that the body is a prison for the soul – and I think I agree. I mean, why do souls need bodies for? Why manifest at all? What is the point? Why does the universe even need us? If the universe knows how to make a star or a black hole, why does it need us to explain it? Completely pointless.
You don’t need to waste time asking those questions you need to get yourself somewhere safe you need to know what to stay away from and if there’s no where safe then you know what to do.
Yes, this is an actually prison. I can’t leave this country because my mother is a politician who can close borders whenever she wants. I tried, cops chased me, I was back. She broke my leg as a “symbol”. I can’t leave, and I’m tired of trying.
I have similar situation
My neck was broken
I’ve been chased by cops 9x
I was raped once
Molested 40ish times bordering on rape
I was put in coma for 5 days
They’re trying to “help”
My plan is to leave quietly and camoflauge
Head to wooded areas/ or mountains
Hope to God day I chose to go nobody is shoving their neck in my business
Or I kill myself I can’t decide
I had it pretty good for a while
I got to hide in my car
(Only place I could be safe. Only place the nightmares wouldn’t follow me )
I could never go far though
Though my goal was to leave town and head east