People always tell me that they care about me, but when it comes to the time I need help no one cares. I’m 14 years old and I want my life to be over. I registered for this website because I’ve already been holding it in so long. A while ago I was slut shamed for making out with someone when I was drunk. It got around because my best friend told people. The slut shaming didn’t bother me at first, but after a while even if it isn’t true, you are told it so many times you start to believe it. I’ve just felt so alone, people always calling me *****, slut, hoe, dumb, stupid, I’ve had enough. I know it may not seem bad, but I just can’t take it anymore, I want it to be over. I want to stop hating myself. Stop being depressed. Stop wanting to kill myself. I want to feel safe and loved. Because when you stop caring, loving, and liking yourself, that’s when it sucks. When your the only person you have and you hate yourself. I want to die, I need to die. I need to leave this horrible place. I need help.
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I know it may not feel like it, but this will pass. This situation is only an extremely tiny part of your life. Hell, I think extremely tiny may be an understatement. In a couple of years, you will be out of school and those people will never see you again. In the meantime, try to focus on your school work and things that make you happy (hobbies and such). Also, if you have any people in your life that you trust (parents, relatives etc.), I’d recommend that you talk to them about this. Some support from others will help with getting through this situation. Remember, this situation will end, it isn’t permanent.
yes I know, and thank you. It’s just really hard when it is happening.
i’m thirteen, nice to see someone my age on this site.
firstly, this is only stupid school stuff. it’ll all be forgotten about in a month. seriously, stay strong.
thank you, it is nice to see someone else my age on this page
What you’re going through is devastating for someone your age. It’s real and it’s scary. And ignoring what others say is easier said than done. I know it follows you home from school. It sticks it’s ugly face in yours when you look in the mirror. It hangs out in your room. But deep down you know that you’re better than that. And wanting help is a step in the right direction. Stay strong. Be yourself. And talk to someone. We’ll be here for you!
thank you, your comments mean a lot to me!
“It got around because my best friend told people.”
-She doesn’t sound like a great friend to me, someone who would gossip and help spread rumors.
“I want to die, I need to die. I need to leave this horrible place.”
-Nah, if the problem is being slot* shamed in your school, once you graduate middle school and go to a new school (high school), the problem is resolved. How long you got left? Another year?
i’m a freshman in high school
maybe you can transfer to another school?