Fairness, in my opinion, is man made. It doesn’t exist in nature. The strong survive, the weak die. Is that fair? To humans, it isnt, but to nature, it is. So, is fairness real, or something humans made up to help even things out?

I do the same things over and over because somedays, I don’t know any bettter. After a lifetime of developing habits, it’s difficult to change, and change is always hard. It’s frightening also. It’s easier to continue bad habits because they are comfortable.

Sounds like you have a bad case of hots for the older woman thing going on. Hey, if you’re attracted to her, you’re attracted to her. It’s not unusual.