I had some training to help people dealing with suicidal thoughts. Which is ironic considering I’m here right now, about to tell you more about how I never feel enough and how I’m just angry and sad and frustrated and I just want something or someone or anything anything really to help me but I don’t need help because I SHOULD BE FINE. I should be. I must have some mental illness or something because other people only seem to need parents and friends to free them from their dark tunnels. How it is that mine hasn’t ended yet? How is it that I haven’t found any type of light yet? I just feel like I’m failing. I’m not depressed, anxious, a narcissist, detached, numb, high, drunk I’m fine. But somehow I’m not happy and life is not appealing and I just look at the sunset from the second floor window that I wish I had the courage to jump out of. What’s wrong with me?
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The diagnostic crew was on a couple days ago.
No shoulds. Other people are not you. No two minds are the same, and categorizing things into mental illness isn’t always helpful. The most effective way to understand what’s going on for you might be therapy, but maybe someone here can give you some initial pointers.
In your mind, where should you be? Who should you be? What subconscious expectations have you set for yourself that you’re not living up to? What should your life be that it has failed to deliver? What hasn’t happened that you were hoping for? If you had complete control of reality, what would you like in your life? What does ‘happy’ look like in your mind?
The more info you have about yourself, the easier it will be to understand yourself.
Beat me to it.
I know exactly how you feel. When you should be happy but you’re just not and you wish you weren’t feeling like this.
You sound a bit bored to me, Idk. You do sound numb/depressed to me. Maybe it would be easier to advise you if we knew more about your life.