I think I’m one of the very few people who has a significant religious motivation for killing themselves. I can’t find any resources for this issue.
Usually when religious people decide to off themselves, it’s in spite of, not because of, their beliefs. So religious resources aren’t really equipped to help me.
And seeking help from nonreligious people— whose empathy centers seem to completely shut down whenever they encounter someone like me (a number of y’all come to mind) and whose only solution to the problem seems to be deconverting me, which won’t help— never works out either.
What I’m trying to say is: I feel really alone. Alone, and trapped, and bitter as hell.
I’m absolutely fucked, aren’t I?
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No, you’re not. Tons of religious people throughout history have felt f*cked due to their religious beliefs, so you’re not alone. Even in today’s world, there are people that feel the same way (e.g. me, though I’m not actively suicidal as of now). So, you’re not alone.
In a way, it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one who feels like this. But the main reason that I feel alone is that I can’t get help for this. No one can help me.
I’m a religious person myself of the Protestant variety. If I understand your situation correctly, you would be offing yourself because of your beliefs. Why would this be?
BTW, I wanted to go to heaven sooner rather than later so if I had offed myself you could say it was because of, not in spite of, my beliefs. This sort of thing is interesting to me so yes, I would like hear why you offing yourself would be because of your beliefs.