August 21,
Today is the day where it all started.The day where my seemingly happy life started to shatter and fail miserably.Until the age of 17,I’ve only heard of depression but I’ve never experienced it.One year later,I’m heavily depressed and on the verge of suicide.It’s funny how life changes in just a matter of days.
One year of living with depression has taught me many things in life and it also taught me not to trust any Fuckin’ bastards and bitches.The pain may fade away,but you will carry the bruises until your very last breath.For a few weeks,I’ve been able to suppress my suicidal ideation for sometime.
I’m able to get up from bed and do basic stuff.Hope a damn truck hits me and I die.It’s really hard to live with the pain and I really hope I die before shit gets out of hand….
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my first 4 years of depression where just that. depression. sadness. the past 5 years ive been suicidal. i hope you find something to help you get better soon. i tried a lot of different things and i found what worked best was removing myself for the cause. since then my depression has been getting worse but thats because of PTSD . if i could just forget the memories. but i dont think i ever will but im going to try. you cant ever give up. there is always hope you just have to find it.
Wow I’m really proud of you for surviving all those years of depression.I can’t actually find a reason to stay tbh.I’m in 2nd year of uni and it fucks me up really badly.Plus I’m doing engineering which is a pain in the ass for someone who’s so damn depressed like me. Let’s see how it all goes.Depression is fucking illness which rips your heart apart….:(((((((