my 2 oldest kids now in there late 20s are not my husbands i have never kept that a secret the only thing i knowingly did wrong was tell them both they were frm same man until a couple of years ago all came out in a family argument,a year ago i had to give up work as i could nolonger cope with it as i have collapsed vertabrae and fatigue the pain can be unbearable at times then i told my 2 oldest i couldnt look after their kids as i was to ill they havent spoke to me since they say im a embarresment to them and pathetic in the past 2 wks ive recieved 2 letters frm them saying they hate me for the lies and for all the crap in there lives one of them is getting married next year my brother and my son is going but not me or my hubby are aloud ,the thing is ever since this all started my husband wont come near me ive lost the bulk of my family and i live in a small village and alot of the people are going to the wedding and slagging me everytime i go out the door i cant cope with this all i feel right now is it would be the best thing for me to do is kill myself no one needs or wants me i cant carry on with no family its really dire im always thinking of death one less headache for hubby in order for my family to be free of me i must die i wish i knew of a pain free way to go
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There won’t be a pain free death, the guilt will get worse. My moms has kept alot of shit from me but I love her too much to do anything. I believe you should respect your moms NO MATTER WHAT. That’s your mother, she brought you into this world and no matter what she does or say she loves more than anythin on the face of the earth can ever, no matter what.
It’s mad fucked up that your kids reject like that. It seems like a necessary lie. And their fuckin 20 somethin years old they should be able to take it like grown ass adult, come out with their feelings towards you, and move the fuck on with life. I can understand you hubby not be so understanding though. He may take some time to come around. But your children, ironically, are being just a little too childish about it. I’m a grown ass man and I was talkin to my moms the other day and she was sittin there tellin me what to do and because she’s my mother she expected me to do it. Of course I am goin to do what she tells me cuz I know she’s thinking of my best interest no matter What I may think. And your kids need to grow the fuck up and start realizing you did it for their best interest.
i lost my mum 4 yrs ago she done some terrable things to us even my dad wasnt inocent ive coped with insest,being raped,drugs nd alchol abuse the death of my first partner and i thought i was getting used to being disabled but i just cant cope with the cruelty of the 2 letters and people knowing whats going on ,i loved and respected both my parents i miss them but i just cant get suicide out my mind i have no life im lonely,and the family would be better off without me
what a lonely life we lead even in a croud ur lonely what is the use of carrying on my family are gone they were my life,my marriage is unrepairable my body is failling me i have no fight left in me im tired i just dont see a reason to live anymore
Peggie that such a sad thing your family have done to you, It’s awful that they say these things and make you feel this way. It is true, what a lonely life we lead, so many people here understand that life is lonely, even in a crowd, even in a family. I really hope that you can get past these issues, though understandably there is alot there to try and get past .. they are wrong peggie, to treat you that way, no one deserves to be treated like that. Do you have any hobbies or anything to do that you do enjoy whilst at home, when the pain is bad and you can’t get out and about, is there anything you can do at home?