i was twelve.
he reached between my legs and touched what was not his.
the guilt, the shame, the sadness… they practically ate me alive.
i was fourteen.
he pulled off my shirt and kissed me where i did not want to be kissed. i wanted those bruises gone. their weeklong stay was too long.
i was told that a boy will touch you like that when he likes you.
i tell myself a boy will touch my heart if he likes it so truly.
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that’s terrible, I’m sorry. I was abused by a girl when I was the same age.
Thats fked up… How can these kinda people be so evil and disgusting and not feel guilty or anything? Guess they are just a bunch of psychopaths. I mean I feel guilty and ashamed of myself to the point Im considering suicide just coz Im simply wasting my life, I dont have (real) friends and I cant get into a relationship coz im too scared. I could never live with the fact that I seriously harmed someone. I would go jump of a bridge right away. I just cant wrap my head around it. Like how could you toch a 12 year old and then continue going with ur life? WTF
Also please stay strong. I hope you will get recovery from ur tragic past and find someone that will trully love you. Its the stories here of people that have been harmed by others that makes me sad the most. Like if you just dont give a shit about your life or you are too pathetic to do something about it like me its kinda understanable that you get depressed, but when you have to suffer just coz of harm done to you by other evil people its just tragic. Much love to you and treat urself good please. you deserve it
I’m very sorry that happened to you. People can be so sick and evil.
As a father, I worry about someone sexually violating my daughter at some point in her life, even though I won’t be alive to know about it. I really hope it doesn’t happen to her. Nobody deserves that and it can cause life long psychological damage. (As my suicide likely will , unfortunately… I really, REALLY wish that wasn’t the case)
I hope you can (at least, mostly) put that terrible experience behind you. Good luck.