I have found it almost impossible to make actual friends throughout my life.

Trying to make them as an adult in a new area has been even MORE difficult. It’s why, after more than six years in this new area, I don’t have one real friend. I thought I had one… But he stabbed me in the back and just started ignoring me. All because I was feeling depressed and wanted to talk about the difficulties going on in my life.

I am constantly getting ignored, rejected, or get no reciprocation when I do the things to try and make friends.

I have come to accept that I will never have authentic friendship in my life and that most people suck. That is one of the many reasons I want to die and plan on taking my life.