I hate this life. I’m stupid, l wish l had my own place, it sucks living with other people l clash with, they are killing me
I had this thought of killing some people but l don’t act on it
I dont know who can really help me with my problems
I’m hurting everyday for many years
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I’m sorry, man. I understand.. I’ve been hurting for years, too. It’s awful.
If it helps any, know that living on your own can be miserable too. I’m so alone that I talk out loud to myself, just so I have someone to talk to.
I hope things get better for you.
I wish I could leave my house and go wherever I’d like, then I wouldn’t probably even need a home. I think about having a home. I think I’d like to build one. I know I cannot do so, I’m lucky to even be able to breathe without oxygen supplement
I have experienced each of your aggravations, anger, problems, pain. You just might be starting to find a way to some healing and some peace. That was heavy for me to say so can I inject humor?
A postal worker was distraught. He said, “I’m going to kill everybody, starting with myself!”
Agreed as Sartre said “hell is other people.” However one thing I’ve learned the hard way is that good or bad people can be a resource. I’ve had a love-hate relationship with family members and we’ve all used each other to get ahead, for valuable advice, support, a place to stay and so forth.
So while you might hate the people you’re with, take advantage of this time and find a decent job or get an education so you can get a career and then move out on your own.
Also it’s not just the people you live with but those you work with, even neighbors can make you hate them. There are many evil, selfish, stupid, irrational people out there. So it’s basically a field of land-mines that you have to navigate and create a space for yourself where you are happy.
I’m also for the idea of suicide. If I felt I could never find better-paying work or a means to escape my horrible existence or if I had physical/mental issues that prevented me from moving ahead, then I wouldn’t hesitate to end my life. What’s the point of living if all you get is pain, misery, suffering that never ends?
I get it, some people still want to live despite all their problems, so if they want to put up with the hell they experience then so be it. I certainly wouldn’t allow myself to go through that.
the interesting thing with that is that i am enjoying being in pain(even mental pain)(im not in chronical pain or anything(what i meant with non mental pain was self harm)) from time to time and am not that frightened of the concept of living like this but still i feel like i really want to die, for some reason besides feeling like i cant live like this.