except the truth is seldom absolutely positive.
This time it involves a past love that openly admitted their vindictive nature. An inability to love without some kind of competition that results in someone’s heart being shattered.
And that’s not love.
Guess we get what we deserve. They got their heart shattered And now I’m the blanket they cry on about their pain. I did ask them to stay away but they work into my head.
I feel less human everyday. My heart says I love the most destructive or unempathetic people and it’s killing me. As an empath, I need love.
At this rate I’ll never have a kid, and that alone makes me want to die. Truth is very few guys seem worthy of kids, I never understood why men judge women so harshly on looks when honestly so few men that jump out as appealing by that kind of judgement… let alone emotional depth. They do say, if you’re going to judge someone make sure you’re perfect.
I guess I’m just tired, I know we attract like minded/similar energies so why am I drawn to wandering narcissistic 30 year old boys?
It doesn’t help the mental health issues…
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Maybe it’s a form of self-contempt, probably, what happens is that you feel a deep hatred for your own existence and you need to look in others for this validation, to feel appreciated, but you are not attracted to the people that can give you this, the people who seduce you are the people who can sink and destroy you, with the aim of demonstrating to yourself that you are not worthy of value, a way of confirming what you have always thought about yourself, even if you always want love, it is a self-sabotage of your own self esteem. Maybe this is what has happened to me too with some people.
Wow this is a really amazing response, thankyou. What’s happened to us to want to sabotage ourselves in such a way?