Today was nothing, and I am no one.
Last night I had my friend do a second tarot card reading on me. The first said that eventually I would find happiness, satisfaction. a life worth living. Being so far away from that, I asked her and the cards, hey, how am I gonna get out of this rut? A rut I’ve just been in for so goddamn long. Her answers were well meant and spoke to some part of me. Desperation. I think the logical part of me knows that death is the only answer.
But today I am nothing and no one. Adrift.