This past few weeks felt really lonely and embarrassing. I just remembered yesterday how miserable my life is.
I walked outside at night while crying and nobody cared at all. How lonely my world is.
I cried in my room while cutting my wrist and I felt the emotional pain rather than the physical pain.
Right now I feel like I can jump from a rooftop or be hit by a truck. Even though I always feel miserable all these years, I feel like I have the courage to die now. I don’t really get why I don’t deserve a happy life.
Please let me die. Living another day scares me more
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I am truly sorry you’re going through this my friend. Well no stranger will reach out to you if you’re walking around at night crying. Most people worry about their own safety and they probably wouldn’t know what to say to you anyway.
What you need to do is make an effort to meet people and make new friends. You have to be patient and take your time. Be prepared for rejection since people are more selfish nowadays than they were in the past.
You can also try reaching out to individuals that you’ve known in the past, friends/family, distant relatives. Just don’t tell them that you’re lonely and need friends, except as a last resort but people don’t want to feel obligated to be friends with anyone, though they might given your situation (and if you have some connection with them).
As I’ve suggested to others here before, try joining hobby groups, social media, clubs, take college courses, anything that will put you in touch with others in a neutral setting.
I’d like to date a hot girl but she’s not going to just drop into my lap, I’m going to have to go out there and find her. Plus I need to bring a lot to the table first in order to catch her interest and be willing to date me.
Similarly with making new friends, people have certain expectations. They want to meet others who are outgoing, making them laugh, are independent, not needy/clingy or depressing.
For a short while in my past, I thought I lost my closest friends and I was pretty broken up about it. I still had my family (and more distant friends) but it’s not the same thing. So I know how loneliness feels (even if it wasn’t total).
I think the easiest, least stressful way to go, is to start with social media-there are other people looking for pure friends/platonic relationships. Find other people with similar hobbies and backgrounds and you might make some new friends that way.
Additionally I plan to make new friends too once my life picks up again because I realize I don’t want to depend on the ones I have now. Also I’ve turned past lovers into very good friends too…so that’s another route to go.
Hook up with people and you never know it can lead to a deeper relationship. The key to remember is there are always other options but you have to make an effort and not give up easily. Bon chance.
Beautiful writing
Loneliness is the most terrible thing. I experienced it although I have some good connections. It must be dreadful what he or she is going through but I still think suicide is not the answer. I think loneliness can be worse in the afterlife.
Yes, he needs to make friends and maintain a connection no matter what. If you suffer from social anxiety and you find it very difficult to make friends there are soultions. Plants and natural herbal remedies can cure you. You need to find what suits you best.
Nonexistingsoul, you need to exist. You need to feel more alive. And there are remedies to it.
Indulgence in horrible negative thoughts is the path to hell.
I am so sorry for you.
You need to fight. Don’t give up. You need to fight step by step.
Right now you feel disconnected from people and life. You need to find life.