No matter how many times I replay the situation over in my head I come to the same conclusion, I fucked up, I should of completed suicide not attempted suicide, its just not worth it. All I had to do was put the pillow or a bag over my head whilst intoxicated, instead my conscience got the better of me not fear and I alerted my family. I would of avoided years of hell, Suicide has been called the ultimate act of avoidance and this is very true. I can say with hand on heart it would of been better for everyone if I had not picked up the phone and alerted the family, irrespective of what the non suicidal say it takes tremendous bottle to take your life.That pillow… if it was good enough for Clara Blandick and Jerzi Kozinski then its good enough for me but I just couldnt bear my family getting that news, in the long run it would of been better for everyone if I had went through with it, these things happen every day, families will never get over it I understand that perfectly well but life is not for everyone.
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that might not have been a bad thing. that method isnt a very good one nor is it exactly reliable especially if you were going with a pillow.
have a joint lol
do you want to talk?
Lol, thank u! It actually is effective if combined with alcohol and pills and thats what I had taken but like I said in the post conscience got the better of me.
Long time no see! Finally, familiarity.
What did they say when you alerted them?
Hey, hope youre keeping well.